Then he pushed me against the wall. "I...I..." He stammered, not able to voice out what was on his mind. "I what Louis?" I asked, getting impatient. Then his eyes shifted from me to whatever/whoever that was outside the window. I sensed that somebody was approaching the house. It couldnt be the boys, they'd be running towards the hut instead of taking slow steps.
Louis then looked at me then shouted in my face "I... I just wanted to tell you this is all a joke. Do you really think I will do this for a girl like you? Cheap and useless? Haha, dream on! A guy like me will never go for a girl like you. I prepared all this so I can hurt you all over again. Stop being so gullible and naive next time." He said, laughing.
The person who was standing at the door then entered. To my horror, it was Alyssa. "Hey babe, i missed you. Why did you leave the house without telling me?" she squeaked. Seriously, I felt like slapping her in the face like how I slapped Louis. "hey love, I missed you too. Where were we?" Louis asked, suddenly oblivious to my presence. I was in the hut, hearing their conversation and witnessing the scene. I didn't know how he do it. I didn't have a clue how I managed to get fooled by him again. I just didn't know why I kept hoping for a miracle to happen. I just didn't know what he wanted from me. To humiliate me? He already did
To make me heart-broken? Been there, done that. What else? "Where were we? This." Alyssa said and leaned towards Louis. I witnessed the same scene again, where their lips met for the second time. Louis had his hands wrapped around Alyssa's waist while her hand was placed on his chest. I wanted to run away from everything, I really did. But somehow I was rooted to the ground, not able to bring myself out of the hut. I wanted to watch the romance between them so I could get heartbroken all over again and eventually be numb.
Louis' POv. If only she knew. If only she knew how much she meant to me, how much she's changed me for the better and how much it made me mad at myself for hurting her over and over again. If i had another chance, I wouldve told her how much I needed her in my life. Wipe her tears away and tell her everything would be okay. I shouldn't have let her walk away. I should've kissed her. I bet she wouldn't forgive me. If I were her I'd already murdered myself.
But Sasha was different. Despite me hurting her alot of times, she was still there, standing strong. She deserves to be happy. She deserves someone that won't hurt her. If only she knew why I had to that. I saw Alyssa coming, and if I were to be caught kissing Sasha, my parents will ask me to leave One Direction and pursue business school in the US. I had to marry Alyssa, by hook or by crook. Alyssa always lied about what was going on between us to my parents. I still remembered the words Alyssa had echoed into my ear when she knew about me having feelings for Sasha. "you love Sasha, don't you Louis? But remember, we are meant to be. If you are ever seen having intimate contact with Sasha, that's the end of her.Oh, and you definitely do not want to leave One Direction, do you?" How could I not be scared ? She threatened to hurt Sasha . I know that I should've kissed Sasha, but I couldn't bear to see Alyssa harming Sasha. I'm a screwed up mess.The boys need to know what I'm going through. They need to. -end of POV-
The boys entered the hut. Niall ushered me out of the hut while the boys shot Louis a look and walked away. Then I told them everything that happened in the hut on the way home. "Stop being silly Sasha. Just stop waiting for a miracle to happen. Louis won't come back in an instant. He's never been this way, but I just want you to stop hoping." Harry said, putting an arm around me. "I'm sorry Sasha. If only I hadnt invited Alyssa over, none of this wouldn't have happened." Harry continued, looking down. I shook my head and said "it's not your fault Harry. It's just part of riding the rollercoaster called life," while looking at Zayn, who wrote down those words in his quotebook . Then all of us leaned in for a group hug .
All of us chattered cheerfully except for Liam . Liam's POV . When we got home, I went up and hid at the secret stairwell. Everybody knows that im with Andrea, but what they don't know is that the both of us aren't on good terms. We just pretend to be happy. I....I think that I still can't get over Dani. Ever since Sasha's arrival, I don't know why I've been thinking of Danielle. Alot. :s I know that I can't be this way but.... *bzz* ! whoops, text message. It's from Louis. What does he want? -Text conversation- Louis: Liam, you there? Keep reading buddy, don't ignore me. I can only trust you man. Meet me at the Starbucks at the corner of the street near the playground. I promise I won't be wasting your time. Please be there alone. Bring yourself and only you. I'll be waiting. I miss you man. And yes, I love you. Liam: yea, see how. If I turn up, it must be your lucky day. If I don't, you can keep waiting. I couldn't ignore Louis. The lad that kept annoying all of us with his random & hilarious quotes, that Swagmasta from Doncasta, that boy that never wants to grow Up, that boy that loves wearing stripes and toms, that boy that does the stop the traffic dance alot. I couldn't possibly ignore him. As I approached Starbucks, I prayed hard that the others wouldn't change their plans and have breakfast at Starbucks. I arrived and saw Louis, sipping on a cup of Yorkshire tea. Okay, calm down Liam. Play it cool. Don't show too much emotion. -end of POV-
Louis' POV. I couldn't control my tears. Liam actually came with no one else. He came towards me and I quickly stood up and hugged him tightly and planted a kiss on his right cheek. Yeah, people in starbucks may think I'm gay. But I didn't care. I missed Liam and the other 3 crazy lads. Most importantly, I missed Sasha, alot. Liam didin't say anything, he didin't even look at me in the eyes and that really hurt me deeply. -conversation between Liam & Louis- Louis: Liam, buddy, look at me man. Liam: that's not important. You said that you wouldn't be wasting my time. So make it quick. You've got 5 minutes, starting now. Louis: why're you doing this to me Liam? You've never been this way. Liam: ask yourself. *glances watch* 4 minutes. Louis: I need more than just 4 minutes. it's not enough. Liam: stop beating around the bush and maybe 4 minutes will be enough . 3 minutes 40 seconds left. Louis: fine, whatever you say James. Have all of you ever asked why I suddenly behaved this way? Why the sudden change? No. Cause all of you have been too concerned with Sasha ever since she arrived in Mullingar. Stop trying to make a good impression on her for once, because she'll eventually end up with me. Now stop and listen to my story. Liam: This is not about us impressing Sasha. This is about you hurting her for her multiple times. None of us is trying to impress Sasha. We all know you have something for her. We know that Louis. But why the hell are you hurting that amazing young girl? Tell me. Tell me why Louis. Louis: Listen and tell this to the rest. Did you know my parents set me up with Alyssa? Did you know that Alyssa threatened to hurt Sasha if I ever ended up with her? Do you know that if my parents ever found out that I'm head over heels for Sasha, I'm forced to leave One Direction and pursue business school? Do you know that I'm forced to marry Alyssa in a couple of years? Do you know how hard it is for me to stop hurting Sasha? Do you know how frustrating it is to see you guys comforting her but I can't do that? Do you know how many times my heart broke seeing Sasha cry? Do you know everytime you give her a hug my world tears apart? Do you know how much I wish that I didn't have to go through all of this? Do you know that I can't do anything right now? Do you know how many times I've wanted to kill myself? Do you Liam? Liam: oh wow. I didn't know Louis, and I'm sorry. I'm sure things will get better, sooner or later. Stay strong Boobear. I'll see you soon. I was dumbfounded. No words could describe my feelings at that time. Sad ? Afraid ? I don't know. Then, I received an incoming phone call from Andrea.
-phone convo between Andrea & Liam- Liam: h-hello ? Andrea: hey babe. Change of plans. We're having breakfast at nando's. Where are you? Liam: oh. okay, I'll meet you there. I just went for a walk near the rink. See you there. Andrea: oh..... Alright. Loveyou . Liam: yeah, you too. As I heaved a sigh, I walked through the snowy pathway with my hands in my pocket. When I arrived, I saw the lads faces lighting up. Then Nialler began eating his food, Zayn beatboxing to a fast-paced song and Harry laughing at the scene. Then, out of the blue, they stopped laughing and the atmosphere got silent. -end of POV-
Sasha's POV. "what's wrong guys ? You were really happy just a moment ago ." I asked, even though I knew the answer to my own question . "what's wrong? Everything is . Remember our first dinner here ? We had a really great time and enjoyed each other's presence . But now, look. How many of us are here? Liam just arrived. Louis isn't here anymore. Why Sasha? Why is he hurting us in this manner? What have we done wrong? Were we mean to him? Did he hate us all this while? did he?" Harry replied with tears streaming down his face. I pat his soft curls and remained quiet, until Liam broke the silence. "I don't know whether or not you lads will believe this, cause I definitely don't know whether to believe it....I met up with Louis just now at Starbucks cause he texted me to meet him. Then, he said.."
Friday, 9 March 2012
Sunday, 4 March 2012
Chapter 4 - I should have kissed you .
Chapter 4 - I should have kissed you .
I was still sound asleep when I received a whatsapp text. I squinted as my vision adjusted to the glaring light from my phone.
SwagMastaDoncasta: you may or may not be reading this right now, but whatever it is, just meet me at The Rink once you see this.
I creeped out of the house slowly while I frantically searched my way through the darkness. When I reached the rink, it was dim, with a couple of lamposts a few feet away. Suddenly, someone tapped my shoulder from behind. It was Louis.
He looked like a major wreck. His face was pale, his hair wasn't made and I could tell that he was freezing. Immediately, I took off my coat and put it over him.
"so, what can I do for you?" I asked nervously.
"sit." he said. I became relieved immediately. Maybe it was his soothing voice that made me calm.
"what you can do to help me is to tell me the truth. Tell me you love me, tell me that you don't want to see me hugging Alyssa. Stop giving me these mixed emotions all the time. At some point, I think that you like me, then the next I see you hugging Zayn. It hurts me to know that I can't go on without you, it really does. Just help me out here alright?" Louis mumbled, his cheeks getting redder by the second.
"you want the truth? Well let me give you the truth now. I think that I'm falling for you. I just melt whenever I see your smile. At first, I thought that you were just another crush, but there was more to than just a simple crush. But now, I'm really sad to say that I'm having second thoughts about you now." I replied, looking deep into his eyes.
His eyes widened. "w-what...second th-thoughts? B-but why? That's not even possible." He stammered, not expecting my response.
"yes it is. Look how bad you've hurt me. Recall what happened last evening. You came home with Alyssa. You kissed her, you hugged her and what hurt me most was that you said that you loved her and that you didn't know me. That's the truth. Wait, I'm not done yet. You grabbed her wrist, but what did I do? I chased after you with a coat to keep you warm. Are you done hurting me now? If you're not, let me know so that I can continue to keep my distance from you." I let everything off my chest. Frankly I was more disappointed than angry.
He remained silent. Then I started to walk away.
"Sasha, don't leave me. Please." Louis said, tearing up.
"stop that Louis. Just stop making me fall inlove with you again. It's all over. May you and Alyssa have a long-lasting relationship. You're so much more than this. Just promise to come over and apologise to the boys tomorrow." I told him and continued to walk away. But before making a turn at a corner, I caught a glimpse of him one last time. That's it, I guess.
Once I reached home, I got into the shower, where everything rewinded again. His kiss, the way his eyes stared into mine, the way his voice always kept me calm. Everything. Time check, 6am in the morning. Then a knock was heard. I opened the door, but no one was in sight. Then the knock came again. I realised that the knock came from the window, not the door. I saw a familiar face outside the tinted window. I opened it slowly, and found Lou, hanging onto the pipes outside the door.
"Aren't you going to invite me in?" he asked hopefully.
"um, no actually. No strangers allowed. What do you want?" I replied sarcastically, remembering his words last evening.
"that's hurting. Invite me in, I'll fall if you don't." He replied.
"oh, so now then you learn the meaning of hurt. The amount of hurting you gave me was way worse than you going to fall. A scarred knee doesn't hurt as much as a scarred heart." I told him off. Boy was I cranky after crying alot.
He then pushed me aside and entered the house and let himself fall onto my bed. He was just about to start talking when I heard another knock on my door.
Must've been the boys, I thought to myself. I opened it and saw three very tired-looking lads standing infront of me.
"are you alright Sasha?!" Liam asked, shaking my body. I laughed and said "yes, yes I am Liam!"
"what is he doing here?" Zayn said, narrowing his eyes at Louis.
"I wanted to talk to Sasha alone, not in the presence of you lads." Louis protested, obviously unhappy with Zayn.
Then Niall voiced out "We came because we were worried that she went missing from home at 4 in the morning. We care for her, Louis. Since we are all here. I want to apologize to you for being so rude towards you." Niall's so adorable and caring.
"Yeah Boobear, i'm really sorry for shunning you out," Harry said and leaned in for a hug.
To our surprise, Louis pushed Harry away instead of returning him a hug.
"You are apologizing to me now, Hazza? Really, you are pathetic. You told me you were disgusted by me and now you are apologizing to me? Wow Harold Edward Styles. Just wow." Louis said and looked away.
"Louis, you do know it's your fault right? Stop turning the table around. Stop making it look like its our fault. Put aside your ego, idiot. Do you realise that you are losing the people you love? Idiot. Just stop being an asshole." Harry voiced out.
Then, he walked up to me with clenched fists and grabbed my arm. "I'm taking this girl here with me and all of you can't stop me." Louis said in a low voice. I could feel my arm aching. The amount force Lou excreted on my right arm was really high. Before Louis could even bring me anywhere, I felt a tug on my other arm. "She's not going anywhere with a jerk like you. You don't deserve her Louis, you don't. Stop hurting Sasha, just stop." Niall said and pushed Louis away.
"Oh so now you're calling ME a jerk Nialler? Really? What a joke. Back off Niall. Just back the hell off"' Louis said and pushed Niall away. Niall, having a short temper, got irritated and punched Louis' face. Again. Then Lou took a shot at Nialler's stomach and Nialler fell backwards. That was when I decided to stop being afraid of Louis and I struck Louis in the face. Then there was a moment of silence. Then Liam and Harry came to Louis' aid as he was bleeding profusedly. No matter how much the boys fought, they always cared about one another, except for Louis, who still kept his head high even though he was bleeding. he managed to drag me out of the house. On the way out, I told the other boys to stay at my apartment and look after Niall instead of chasing me.
Louis held my hand tight while his other hand clutched his jaw. "W-where the hell are we going?" I asked. He remained silent. I was actually worried he might hurt me. He dragged me to the Rink again and brought me in this little hut located at the far end of the area. The pathway towards the hut was beautifully decorated with candles. In the hut, there was a round table covered with a red table-cloth. A candid picture of us was in a frame and it was placed in the centre of the table. Louis forced a weak smile and signaled me to sit. He sat opposite of me and looked me in the eyes.
"I came by your apartment so I could bring you here. This wasn't how i expected it to be. Let me tell you how my initial plan was supposed to be. My plan was to fetch you from your apartment and blindfold you & guide you here. I wanted us to have a romantic breakfast and sort things out together. But things changed. This wasn't according to what I had in mind. At all. Infact, I'm mad at myself that I got into a scuffle with Niall," Louis explained.
'Put your ego aside for once. Is it that hard? I told you to apologize to the boys, not to hurt them, including my brother. I don't get you. I just don't. I'm guessing that you are expecting me to forgive you, right? Yes, I forgave you a long time ago but the pain you caused me is still here. You should've thought about it thoroughly before saying it out. Give us a break and most importantly give yourself a break. Find yourself again. It's not that easy for me to accept you now. Yes, what you did to me was painful but it made a huge impact in my life. Just stay away from me for the time being. It just isn't working." I replied Louis instinctively.
He cried and replied me "I had never ever done this for any other girl. The first girl that I chased who wouldn't accept me, the first girl that caused me to fight with the boys. the first girl that i gave my everything, the first girl that I love with all my heart .. the first ..
"The first girl you hurt badly..." i continued for him.
"If you loved me you wouldn't be doing this to me. You wouldn't have given Alyssa a kiss. You wouldn't hurt your bestfriends. You wouldn't have some unfinished business with Alyssa. If you loved me, you wouldn't make me cry. But the fact is you did Louis Tomlinson. You did. are you happy now? Seriously, are you?"I questioned.
He looked down and grabbed his phone. I saw him dialling Zayn's number. He put it on loud speaker so I could hear their conversation.
Louis: Hey....zayn?
Zayn: yea, what?
Louis: can you come to the hut..? For the last time, Please.
Zayn: what hut? for what? So you could hurt us all over again?
Louis: the hut near the rink, the one that I brought Lottie to during her 9th birthday. Please, I promise not to ask from you anything else after this.
Then he hung up and looked at me. It hurt me to see him suffering that way. I realized that being an egoistic person will only make me lose the people that truly care for me. So, putting my ego aside, i stood up and went up to Louis. I tore the end of my long sleeve and wiped away the blood that was on his cheek where Niall had punched him.
"Ow, that hurts." Louis said, gripping my hand.
"Shut up and stay still." I replied while carefully wiping his cheek.
Suddenly, he stood up and grabbed my waist. Our eyes met and his eyes looked deep into mine.
"I...." He whispered.
I was still sound asleep when I received a whatsapp text. I squinted as my vision adjusted to the glaring light from my phone.
SwagMastaDoncasta: you may or may not be reading this right now, but whatever it is, just meet me at The Rink once you see this.
I creeped out of the house slowly while I frantically searched my way through the darkness. When I reached the rink, it was dim, with a couple of lamposts a few feet away. Suddenly, someone tapped my shoulder from behind. It was Louis.
He looked like a major wreck. His face was pale, his hair wasn't made and I could tell that he was freezing. Immediately, I took off my coat and put it over him.
"so, what can I do for you?" I asked nervously.
"sit." he said. I became relieved immediately. Maybe it was his soothing voice that made me calm.
"what you can do to help me is to tell me the truth. Tell me you love me, tell me that you don't want to see me hugging Alyssa. Stop giving me these mixed emotions all the time. At some point, I think that you like me, then the next I see you hugging Zayn. It hurts me to know that I can't go on without you, it really does. Just help me out here alright?" Louis mumbled, his cheeks getting redder by the second.
"you want the truth? Well let me give you the truth now. I think that I'm falling for you. I just melt whenever I see your smile. At first, I thought that you were just another crush, but there was more to than just a simple crush. But now, I'm really sad to say that I'm having second thoughts about you now." I replied, looking deep into his eyes.
His eyes widened. "w-what...second th-thoughts? B-but why? That's not even possible." He stammered, not expecting my response.
"yes it is. Look how bad you've hurt me. Recall what happened last evening. You came home with Alyssa. You kissed her, you hugged her and what hurt me most was that you said that you loved her and that you didn't know me. That's the truth. Wait, I'm not done yet. You grabbed her wrist, but what did I do? I chased after you with a coat to keep you warm. Are you done hurting me now? If you're not, let me know so that I can continue to keep my distance from you." I let everything off my chest. Frankly I was more disappointed than angry.
He remained silent. Then I started to walk away.
"Sasha, don't leave me. Please." Louis said, tearing up.
"stop that Louis. Just stop making me fall inlove with you again. It's all over. May you and Alyssa have a long-lasting relationship. You're so much more than this. Just promise to come over and apologise to the boys tomorrow." I told him and continued to walk away. But before making a turn at a corner, I caught a glimpse of him one last time. That's it, I guess.
Once I reached home, I got into the shower, where everything rewinded again. His kiss, the way his eyes stared into mine, the way his voice always kept me calm. Everything. Time check, 6am in the morning. Then a knock was heard. I opened the door, but no one was in sight. Then the knock came again. I realised that the knock came from the window, not the door. I saw a familiar face outside the tinted window. I opened it slowly, and found Lou, hanging onto the pipes outside the door.
"Aren't you going to invite me in?" he asked hopefully.
"um, no actually. No strangers allowed. What do you want?" I replied sarcastically, remembering his words last evening.
"that's hurting. Invite me in, I'll fall if you don't." He replied.
"oh, so now then you learn the meaning of hurt. The amount of hurting you gave me was way worse than you going to fall. A scarred knee doesn't hurt as much as a scarred heart." I told him off. Boy was I cranky after crying alot.
He then pushed me aside and entered the house and let himself fall onto my bed. He was just about to start talking when I heard another knock on my door.
Must've been the boys, I thought to myself. I opened it and saw three very tired-looking lads standing infront of me.
"are you alright Sasha?!" Liam asked, shaking my body. I laughed and said "yes, yes I am Liam!"
"what is he doing here?" Zayn said, narrowing his eyes at Louis.
"I wanted to talk to Sasha alone, not in the presence of you lads." Louis protested, obviously unhappy with Zayn.
Then Niall voiced out "We came because we were worried that she went missing from home at 4 in the morning. We care for her, Louis. Since we are all here. I want to apologize to you for being so rude towards you." Niall's so adorable and caring.
"Yeah Boobear, i'm really sorry for shunning you out," Harry said and leaned in for a hug.
To our surprise, Louis pushed Harry away instead of returning him a hug.
"You are apologizing to me now, Hazza? Really, you are pathetic. You told me you were disgusted by me and now you are apologizing to me? Wow Harold Edward Styles. Just wow." Louis said and looked away.
"Louis, you do know it's your fault right? Stop turning the table around. Stop making it look like its our fault. Put aside your ego, idiot. Do you realise that you are losing the people you love? Idiot. Just stop being an asshole." Harry voiced out.
Then, he walked up to me with clenched fists and grabbed my arm. "I'm taking this girl here with me and all of you can't stop me." Louis said in a low voice. I could feel my arm aching. The amount force Lou excreted on my right arm was really high. Before Louis could even bring me anywhere, I felt a tug on my other arm. "She's not going anywhere with a jerk like you. You don't deserve her Louis, you don't. Stop hurting Sasha, just stop." Niall said and pushed Louis away.
"Oh so now you're calling ME a jerk Nialler? Really? What a joke. Back off Niall. Just back the hell off"' Louis said and pushed Niall away. Niall, having a short temper, got irritated and punched Louis' face. Again. Then Lou took a shot at Nialler's stomach and Nialler fell backwards. That was when I decided to stop being afraid of Louis and I struck Louis in the face. Then there was a moment of silence. Then Liam and Harry came to Louis' aid as he was bleeding profusedly. No matter how much the boys fought, they always cared about one another, except for Louis, who still kept his head high even though he was bleeding. he managed to drag me out of the house. On the way out, I told the other boys to stay at my apartment and look after Niall instead of chasing me.
Louis held my hand tight while his other hand clutched his jaw. "W-where the hell are we going?" I asked. He remained silent. I was actually worried he might hurt me. He dragged me to the Rink again and brought me in this little hut located at the far end of the area. The pathway towards the hut was beautifully decorated with candles. In the hut, there was a round table covered with a red table-cloth. A candid picture of us was in a frame and it was placed in the centre of the table. Louis forced a weak smile and signaled me to sit. He sat opposite of me and looked me in the eyes.
"I came by your apartment so I could bring you here. This wasn't how i expected it to be. Let me tell you how my initial plan was supposed to be. My plan was to fetch you from your apartment and blindfold you & guide you here. I wanted us to have a romantic breakfast and sort things out together. But things changed. This wasn't according to what I had in mind. At all. Infact, I'm mad at myself that I got into a scuffle with Niall," Louis explained.
'Put your ego aside for once. Is it that hard? I told you to apologize to the boys, not to hurt them, including my brother. I don't get you. I just don't. I'm guessing that you are expecting me to forgive you, right? Yes, I forgave you a long time ago but the pain you caused me is still here. You should've thought about it thoroughly before saying it out. Give us a break and most importantly give yourself a break. Find yourself again. It's not that easy for me to accept you now. Yes, what you did to me was painful but it made a huge impact in my life. Just stay away from me for the time being. It just isn't working." I replied Louis instinctively.
He cried and replied me "I had never ever done this for any other girl. The first girl that I chased who wouldn't accept me, the first girl that caused me to fight with the boys. the first girl that i gave my everything, the first girl that I love with all my heart .. the first ..
"The first girl you hurt badly..." i continued for him.
"If you loved me you wouldn't be doing this to me. You wouldn't have given Alyssa a kiss. You wouldn't hurt your bestfriends. You wouldn't have some unfinished business with Alyssa. If you loved me, you wouldn't make me cry. But the fact is you did Louis Tomlinson. You did. are you happy now? Seriously, are you?"I questioned.
He looked down and grabbed his phone. I saw him dialling Zayn's number. He put it on loud speaker so I could hear their conversation.
Louis: Hey....zayn?
Zayn: yea, what?
Louis: can you come to the hut..? For the last time, Please.
Zayn: what hut? for what? So you could hurt us all over again?
Louis: the hut near the rink, the one that I brought Lottie to during her 9th birthday. Please, I promise not to ask from you anything else after this.
Then he hung up and looked at me. It hurt me to see him suffering that way. I realized that being an egoistic person will only make me lose the people that truly care for me. So, putting my ego aside, i stood up and went up to Louis. I tore the end of my long sleeve and wiped away the blood that was on his cheek where Niall had punched him.
"Ow, that hurts." Louis said, gripping my hand.
"Shut up and stay still." I replied while carefully wiping his cheek.
Suddenly, he stood up and grabbed my waist. Our eyes met and his eyes looked deep into mine.
"I...." He whispered.
Monday, 27 February 2012
Chapter 3 - More Than This . (part 2)
Chapter 3 - More Than This . (part 2)
When I reached home, I saw Harry spreading out the tablecloth, Liam straightening his suit and Niall chomping down on a barbecued chicken wing. When Harry saw my wrecked state, he asked "why aren't you ready yet? Alyssa's going to arrive any minute!" I wanted to leave, but instead, they told me to get dressed.
Picking out a solemn, simple dress, I did my hair and applied a dash of eyeliner.
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She patted my right shoulder and whipered into my ear "everything's going to be okay. Just be strong alright?" while giving a comforting smile. She reminded me exactly of Danielle, my sister whom died due to cancer five years ago. She was Andrea's bestest friend ever since preschool.
The both of us stood infront of the large mirror and inhaled deeply. I put on a confident smile for Louis. I was certain that he'd come home, I'd straightened things out with him and everything was going to turn out right.
Well, turns out, my theory couldn't be more wrong.
When Harry opened the door, I saw Alyssa, whom had gorgeous blonde wavy hair, rosy cheeks and an amazing figure. But she wasn't alone. She was chaperoned by Louis, whose arm was linked with hers.
When they stepped in and sat on the seats opposite mine, Alyssa kissed Louis on the cheek and whispered loud enough for me to hear her say "I love you." He half-smiled and replied "i love you, too." Bullets couldn't have hit me harder. But then I realised he wasn't taking it back, hence breaking my heart into a million pieces.
Zayn, noticing that I was on the verge of tears, lead me to his room and rubbed my back gently. "cry it all out angel. Just promise me that you'll put on a beautiful smile after this okay..?" He said. I cried even harder in his arms. Why was Louis doing this to me? I don't understand. Just as I was about to crack a smile, Alyssa walked in and said sarcastically "wow. Just wow. So cheap of you to go around flirting with other guys. I wonder how many times you've popped you cherry," with her arms folded across her chest.
"watch that filthy mouth of yours Alyssa Sutton!" Zayn shot back furiously and stood up. I tugged on his arm. Then, Louis walked in and grabbed her by the waist. "what's going on sweetie?" He asked flirtatiously.
"Nothing babe, I was just describing this filthy whore to Zayn here. I mean, how could she possibly be related to the gorgeous Niall Horan? That I don't understand," she pouted and put her arms around Louis' neck. Louis grinned and replied, "yeah exactly! Idk my friends can be so unreasonable sometimes..." At that point, bullets couldn't have hurt me further. Realising that he wouldn't be taking his words back, I rubbed my eyes, wanting him to disappear.
Out of the blue, Niall punched Louis' face. All of us were utterly shocked. We had never seen Niall that furious before. Louis got up and glared at Niall. Niall didn't look the least bit afraid, instead, he challenged Louis with his eyes to take a shot back. Then, Harry got involved in the matter and pushed both of the lads away from each other.
"Alyssa Anne Sutton, what the hell happened to you?! You didn't go around talking to people like that the last time I met you! So what if Sasha's not Niall's biological sister? What's so shallow about that?! You barely know her and you're already bitching in her face. Just perfect. Really. I thought that we'd be having a lovely evening, but you had to ruin everything. Leave Alyssa, just leave." Harry said to her loud and clear. He clearly wasn't expecting Alyssa to behave in that manner.
Alyssa broke down in tears. She was about to turn away when Louis held her right wrist, not taking his eyes off Harry. "look at yourself Harry! You're standing up for a girl you've known for only a couple of years over Alyssa who's known you even before you got famous! What. the. hell." Louis replied. Oh god. Please don't fight, I prayed. Please.
Harry's eyes widened. Then he laughed and replied, "You, sir, are a joke. You don't know that girl over there? Let's look back, shall we? Let's see, she was the one who kept you sober when you dragged her to a place that she wasn't even legal to enter! I'm ashamed of you. Thank you for showing me who you are underneath. Now then I know how much of a hypocrite, self-centred person you are." Then he rolled his eyes and gave me a hug to add to Louis' rage.
Before Louis could come up with another comeback, Liam just placed a hand on Louis' shoulder and whipered softly, "Before you hurt Sasha's feelings any further, I wanna let the both of you know that what you did was really shallow of you. It also reflected badly upon yourselves. If any of you want to talk to us, don't bother unless you'd admit your mistake and apologize personally to Sasha."
A tear rolled down Louis' cheek. I've never seen him cry before. Then he turned to me and said, "Thank you so much Sasha. Never once in my life had I been treated this way, especially from Harry. Now look what you've done." Then he turned to the boys and said, "what happened to the policy boys? Bros before Hoes?"
Immediately, Zayn stood up and shot back, "That policy only applies to hoes who's lost their virginities a million times," while glaring at Alyssa. "Apparently, Sasha here is still a pure virgin. And hence the policy doesn't apply to here, get it Lou?" Zayn finished with a fake smile. Louis left in a huff, slamming the front door behind him.
Alyssa just stood there silently, but I bet in her head, she'd stabbed me to death a million times. She just stomped her foot and left the room. Then, my heartache got worse. My mind told me not to worry about him, but my heart told me to go after him.
Just as I was about to get up to chase after Louis, I received another whatsapp message on my phone. It was from Farysha.
FairyshaHoran : Sasha, please know that I never had the intention to dump or leave Niall. I had to do it because of..... Justin.
I shuddered at the last word. Justin, was infact Farysha's boyfriend, whom always got drunk and abused her had jealousy issues. When Farysha first started going out with Niall, Justin begged her to get back with him, but Farysha rejected him. Now, he was back once again, this time threatening to destroy One Direction's career if she didn't leave Niall. Then, after spacing out for a little while, I snapped back into reality and chased after Louis.
I found him along a road, kicking snow out of his path. Frankly I was starting to question myself why I even put down my ego to apologise to someone that admitted that he didnt know me? Why go through the shame? The reason was simple: I, Sasha Anne Horan, had fallen in love with Louis William Tomlinson. I wasn't surprised that Alyssa was still waiting for him. I mean, look at him. He's an amazing singer, he's got gorgeous features and he knows how to make girls melt just by looking into their eyes. I sprinted forward and grabbed his wrist. "Louis, hold up." I said, breathing moderately, not wanting to faint again.
"Get back home Sasha. You shouldn't be out here." Louis said, wrenching his wrist out of my grasp.
"So that's it? You really want me to leave like nothing's happen? I'm going to count to 10, and if you don't respond, I take it that you never cared about me. At all." I declared, wanting to sort my feelings out once and for all. "1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9.." I counted, but I hesitated for a while before finally saying "10."
"I get it now Louis. Now I know where I stand in your eyes. But what I hated most about myself was that I actually thought that if I let myself fall for you, you'd catch me. Guess I was wrong. Ironic how the person you hate most is also the person behind your smile. Well, I'll be leaving now. Nice knowing you Louis Tomlinson." I turned and walked away, preventing my tears from falling. Maybe what Niall said about me was correct. I was too naive. That's why I was an easy-catch. Someone easily fooled.
When I got home, Alyssa looked up at me and shouted, "YOU AGAIN?! PLEASE, JUST LEAVE!" I gave a small smile to the boys to indicate that I was alright. In return, Harry muttered "it's not Sasha that should leave. Its you."
I was pretty sure that Alyssa heard what Harry said because after that, she spun around and hissed "look at me and Say it to my face Harold Edward Styles," while challenging him with her eyes.
"Look at you? I can't even face you. I'm too ashamed to admit that I used to be your bestfriend. Just leave and let us sort this matter out by ourselves and do us all a favour and take care of Louis. Make sure he doesn't do anything stupid as we won't be there to tell him not to. As for yourself, you might want to do some reflecting on what you did and whether or not you deserve to be my bestfriend." Harry said, his eyes not taking off the ground.
Then, Liam and Zayn led me to my bedroom and tucked me under the covers. I was too tired to even think about what would happen next.
Maybe some things were just not meant to be.
When I reached home, I saw Harry spreading out the tablecloth, Liam straightening his suit and Niall chomping down on a barbecued chicken wing. When Harry saw my wrecked state, he asked "why aren't you ready yet? Alyssa's going to arrive any minute!" I wanted to leave, but instead, they told me to get dressed.
Picking out a solemn, simple dress, I did my hair and applied a dash of eyeliner.
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She patted my right shoulder and whipered into my ear "everything's going to be okay. Just be strong alright?" while giving a comforting smile. She reminded me exactly of Danielle, my sister whom died due to cancer five years ago. She was Andrea's bestest friend ever since preschool.
The both of us stood infront of the large mirror and inhaled deeply. I put on a confident smile for Louis. I was certain that he'd come home, I'd straightened things out with him and everything was going to turn out right.
Well, turns out, my theory couldn't be more wrong.
When Harry opened the door, I saw Alyssa, whom had gorgeous blonde wavy hair, rosy cheeks and an amazing figure. But she wasn't alone. She was chaperoned by Louis, whose arm was linked with hers.
When they stepped in and sat on the seats opposite mine, Alyssa kissed Louis on the cheek and whispered loud enough for me to hear her say "I love you." He half-smiled and replied "i love you, too." Bullets couldn't have hit me harder. But then I realised he wasn't taking it back, hence breaking my heart into a million pieces.
Zayn, noticing that I was on the verge of tears, lead me to his room and rubbed my back gently. "cry it all out angel. Just promise me that you'll put on a beautiful smile after this okay..?" He said. I cried even harder in his arms. Why was Louis doing this to me? I don't understand. Just as I was about to crack a smile, Alyssa walked in and said sarcastically "wow. Just wow. So cheap of you to go around flirting with other guys. I wonder how many times you've popped you cherry," with her arms folded across her chest.
"watch that filthy mouth of yours Alyssa Sutton!" Zayn shot back furiously and stood up. I tugged on his arm. Then, Louis walked in and grabbed her by the waist. "what's going on sweetie?" He asked flirtatiously.
"Nothing babe, I was just describing this filthy whore to Zayn here. I mean, how could she possibly be related to the gorgeous Niall Horan? That I don't understand," she pouted and put her arms around Louis' neck. Louis grinned and replied, "yeah exactly! Idk my friends can be so unreasonable sometimes..." At that point, bullets couldn't have hurt me further. Realising that he wouldn't be taking his words back, I rubbed my eyes, wanting him to disappear.
Out of the blue, Niall punched Louis' face. All of us were utterly shocked. We had never seen Niall that furious before. Louis got up and glared at Niall. Niall didn't look the least bit afraid, instead, he challenged Louis with his eyes to take a shot back. Then, Harry got involved in the matter and pushed both of the lads away from each other.
"Alyssa Anne Sutton, what the hell happened to you?! You didn't go around talking to people like that the last time I met you! So what if Sasha's not Niall's biological sister? What's so shallow about that?! You barely know her and you're already bitching in her face. Just perfect. Really. I thought that we'd be having a lovely evening, but you had to ruin everything. Leave Alyssa, just leave." Harry said to her loud and clear. He clearly wasn't expecting Alyssa to behave in that manner.
Alyssa broke down in tears. She was about to turn away when Louis held her right wrist, not taking his eyes off Harry. "look at yourself Harry! You're standing up for a girl you've known for only a couple of years over Alyssa who's known you even before you got famous! What. the. hell." Louis replied. Oh god. Please don't fight, I prayed. Please.
Harry's eyes widened. Then he laughed and replied, "You, sir, are a joke. You don't know that girl over there? Let's look back, shall we? Let's see, she was the one who kept you sober when you dragged her to a place that she wasn't even legal to enter! I'm ashamed of you. Thank you for showing me who you are underneath. Now then I know how much of a hypocrite, self-centred person you are." Then he rolled his eyes and gave me a hug to add to Louis' rage.
Before Louis could come up with another comeback, Liam just placed a hand on Louis' shoulder and whipered softly, "Before you hurt Sasha's feelings any further, I wanna let the both of you know that what you did was really shallow of you. It also reflected badly upon yourselves. If any of you want to talk to us, don't bother unless you'd admit your mistake and apologize personally to Sasha."
A tear rolled down Louis' cheek. I've never seen him cry before. Then he turned to me and said, "Thank you so much Sasha. Never once in my life had I been treated this way, especially from Harry. Now look what you've done." Then he turned to the boys and said, "what happened to the policy boys? Bros before Hoes?"
Immediately, Zayn stood up and shot back, "That policy only applies to hoes who's lost their virginities a million times," while glaring at Alyssa. "Apparently, Sasha here is still a pure virgin. And hence the policy doesn't apply to here, get it Lou?" Zayn finished with a fake smile. Louis left in a huff, slamming the front door behind him.
Alyssa just stood there silently, but I bet in her head, she'd stabbed me to death a million times. She just stomped her foot and left the room. Then, my heartache got worse. My mind told me not to worry about him, but my heart told me to go after him.
Just as I was about to get up to chase after Louis, I received another whatsapp message on my phone. It was from Farysha.
FairyshaHoran : Sasha, please know that I never had the intention to dump or leave Niall. I had to do it because of..... Justin.
I shuddered at the last word. Justin, was infact Farysha's boyfriend, whom always got drunk and abused her had jealousy issues. When Farysha first started going out with Niall, Justin begged her to get back with him, but Farysha rejected him. Now, he was back once again, this time threatening to destroy One Direction's career if she didn't leave Niall. Then, after spacing out for a little while, I snapped back into reality and chased after Louis.
I found him along a road, kicking snow out of his path. Frankly I was starting to question myself why I even put down my ego to apologise to someone that admitted that he didnt know me? Why go through the shame? The reason was simple: I, Sasha Anne Horan, had fallen in love with Louis William Tomlinson. I wasn't surprised that Alyssa was still waiting for him. I mean, look at him. He's an amazing singer, he's got gorgeous features and he knows how to make girls melt just by looking into their eyes. I sprinted forward and grabbed his wrist. "Louis, hold up." I said, breathing moderately, not wanting to faint again.
"Get back home Sasha. You shouldn't be out here." Louis said, wrenching his wrist out of my grasp.
"So that's it? You really want me to leave like nothing's happen? I'm going to count to 10, and if you don't respond, I take it that you never cared about me. At all." I declared, wanting to sort my feelings out once and for all. "1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9.." I counted, but I hesitated for a while before finally saying "10."
"I get it now Louis. Now I know where I stand in your eyes. But what I hated most about myself was that I actually thought that if I let myself fall for you, you'd catch me. Guess I was wrong. Ironic how the person you hate most is also the person behind your smile. Well, I'll be leaving now. Nice knowing you Louis Tomlinson." I turned and walked away, preventing my tears from falling. Maybe what Niall said about me was correct. I was too naive. That's why I was an easy-catch. Someone easily fooled.
When I got home, Alyssa looked up at me and shouted, "YOU AGAIN?! PLEASE, JUST LEAVE!" I gave a small smile to the boys to indicate that I was alright. In return, Harry muttered "it's not Sasha that should leave. Its you."
I was pretty sure that Alyssa heard what Harry said because after that, she spun around and hissed "look at me and Say it to my face Harold Edward Styles," while challenging him with her eyes.
"Look at you? I can't even face you. I'm too ashamed to admit that I used to be your bestfriend. Just leave and let us sort this matter out by ourselves and do us all a favour and take care of Louis. Make sure he doesn't do anything stupid as we won't be there to tell him not to. As for yourself, you might want to do some reflecting on what you did and whether or not you deserve to be my bestfriend." Harry said, his eyes not taking off the ground.
Then, Liam and Zayn led me to my bedroom and tucked me under the covers. I was too tired to even think about what would happen next.
Maybe some things were just not meant to be.
Chapter 3 - More Than This .
Chapter 3 - More Than This .
The next morning, I woke up with a throbbing head. After my eyes had adjusted its sight, I realised that I was completely naked. Well, with my bra on atleast. But still. I stretched and found another person sharing the same bed as me. The body stirred and the unknown person yawned. He removed the blanket and I gasped. It was Louis. As soon as he got up, my eyes pried away from his dingaling, which made my cheeks burn.
"Oh.... God.... What happened?" I mumbled, Unsure of the series of events that had happened the night before. All I could remember was Louis mumbling a couple of words then knocking out, then my drink getting spiked, and then, poof , nothing .
"you really don't remember, eh? well, nothing serious happened, so don't worry about it." He declared, clearly disappointed.
I nodded. Why the hell were we both naked? Had I surrendered my v-status already? Many questions popped into my head like a quickfire round.
I spotted a bathrobe on the floor, so I quickly put it on, grabbed a mirror that was placed on the bedside table and took a glance at myself. There was a red mark on my neck. Oh god what was that? Was it a rash or....? I gaped in horror as I thought about what it was. It was a hickey. My first time getting lovebit and I was in a drunk state. How perfect.
"I'm pretty sure you were quite sober and can remember some things from last night. Ummmm, about what I said, you can choose to forget about it." Louis said suddenly. His hair was in a mess, which made him really cute. "......what if I don't choose to forget it?" was what I found myself saying. He blinked, then got up. He didnt care about the fact that he was naked, he just removed the blanket and hugged me. Suddenly, sparks flew. Butterflies fluttered in my stomach. My heart raced. Am I really falling for him? But.... I promised myself not to fall TOO hard and expect anything from him.
Just as I was about to kiss his cheek, Niall screamed "WHAT THE HELL?!" Immediately, Louis covered himself with the blankets and leaving the room with bright red cheeks.
"Niall... Its not what you think.." I explained calmly, startled at his sudden appearance.
"How could you do this?! I invite you to spend Christmas with me and now I'm finding you having sex with one of my bestfriends! Bloody hell Sasha, what were you thinking?!" Niall shouted, not thinking about my feelings. At all.
"Oh, so you think I'm a slut now?! I'm not that shallow Niall!" I screamed back with tears welling up in my eyes. ".....fine, I'll leave by tomorrow morning and you can pretend none of this ever happened," I said, after calming myself down.
As I turned to take my luggage out from the closet, Niall spoke. "I-I'm so sorry Sash. I guess I'm just not over the fact that Farysha dumped me and I had to vent it out on you instead." His face turned red, for his weakness was getting shouted at.
"WAIT, WHAT?! when?!" I gasped. How long had they been keeping it a secret from me?
"The day after you got sick, she left without a word. The next thing I knew, she was already in Singapore." He stammered, then leaning on my shoulders.
"Ohmigod. I'm so sorry Nialler. I didn't know. I'm sorry that I shouted at you, too." I said, wiping his tears away.
"s'okay. I'm sorry that I screamed in your face, I'm just so concerned about you. I mean, it just makes me so furious seeing the other lads in Mullingar staring at you like you're an easy catch. So furious that I feel like scooping their eyes out when they ogle you. They want to be your first cause you're a naive, good-hearted, gorgeous young girl, which makes it easier for these kind of guys to fool your heart. And you are so much more than an easy catch. You're my sister, and I'm willing to go to the end of the world to protect you from those assholes." Nail said, patting my head. I was so touched by his words. This was why I was proud to be known as Sasha Horan, Niall James Horan's sister.
As I opened my mouth to say something, suddenly Harry shouted "Alyssa's coming back! She's coming home!" that echoed throughout the whole house. I combed my hair and went downstairs with Niall. "who's Alyssa?" I asked. When Harry saw me, he smiled. "enjoyed your night Sasha? ;)" he said. I shot him a clueless look. "haha, don't worry. Your v-card is still there," he assured me in a low voice. I nodded in relief. "Alyssa's my bestfriend since forever. She's amazing." Harry continued. "Soo what are we going to do for her homecoming?" Niall said, as if on cue. "How 'bout I cook up something special? I'd like to meet her," I suggested excitedly. Andrea, Liam, Niall and Zayn looked uneasy. How weird.
Later in the afternoon, Andrea, Harry and I went to the supermarket. We were going to cook spaghetti that night. "she's so pretty, she's so funny, she's so...." Harry kept rattling on Alyssa's good qualities. Harry left to go look for good wine while Andrea and I picked out the groceries.
'so... Does Harry like Alyssa or something?' I asked. I expected it to be a 100% yes, since he wouldn't stop bragging about her ever since he got her text.
'well, yeah. Once. They tried to work things out, but I guess they were better off as friends.' Andrea smiled.
'So.... Does this Alyssa girl have a boyfriend ?' I asked, curious to know more about this amazing girl Harry had been talking about.
'well, no. The last time we've seen her, she's been waiting on Lo-' Her voice trailed off.
'For Louis?' I asked, my heart dropping.
'well yeah. They went out before, but then she cheated on Louis with some rich bloke named Aston. Louis never told Harry about this cause he didn't want to ruin their friendship.' What..? But I mean, that's all history right? I bit my lower lip. I just hoped that Louis didn't have any feelings for her. "don't worry, I bet Louis is all in for you." Andrea comforted, looking at my changed expression. I could only hope.
For some reason, I didn't feel quite alright with the idea of Alyssa still waiting on Louis after all these years.
Then, a whatsapp message came through. It was from Louis.
SwagMastaDoncasta: hey babe. Where'd everybody go? You alright? Come home soon. Miss you. x
I felt like throwing my phone onto the ground, but then again, I remembered the promise I'd made to myself: I'm wasn't going to fall too hard for him. Okay so I kind of fell harder than expected. Tears trickled down my cheeks as I typed with trembling fingers.
Affhsyz: hey. at the supermarket now. ALYSSA'S coming over tonight. See ya.
I purposely typed Alyssa's name in capital letters. I wasn't expecting him to reply to it anyway.
When we reached home, I just made a dash towards the secret stairwell behind the bookcase and cried my eyes out. Then, when I heard footsteps coming, I wiped my tears.
"Sasha. Are you okay?" Zayn said softly and sat beside me.
I took a deep breath and forced a smile. "it's nothing. I'm just an emotional wreck sometimes for no reason. I'm okay." I assured him.
"so you weren't up here hoping that i'd come?" he said, pouting.
I laughed and shook my head. "I'm fine Zayn, don't worry about it." I said with a stifle. "I know you're not. I live with 2 sisters, so I know this whole 'I'm okay' thing means that you're obviously not. Everything's gonna be okay, I promise." Zayn continued, whilst embracing me.
Then, I saw Louis at the bottom of the stairwell, staring up at us. I didn't know why, but at that point of time, my heart sanked. It snaked even deeper when I thought about Alyssa.
"i-it actually h-hurts m-m-me to see one of my b-bestfriends hugging you." He stammered, while trying to look at me in the eyes. In my head, I wanted to scream: AND IT FUCKING HURTS ME TO KNOW THAT YOU ONCE HAD A THING FOR ALYSSA AND NOW ALYSSA STILL LIKES YOU. But I preferred not to start an argument, so I kept it to myself.
"Let's go talk near The Rink." He suggested. The Rink's an ice-skating area, famous for it's magnificent public display of affection shown by couples worldwide during winter.
It was so tensed between me and him. Then, thinking about Alyssa again, my jealousy raged and I hissed, "what do you want from me, exactly?" I realised that it was rude of me to start a topic that way, but I couldn't help my anger at that time, which then resulted in a heated argument.
"what do I want? What do I want? Do you know how much I felt like pushing Zayn away from you so that I could be the only one to hug you? Do you ever realise how much I stammer whenever I'm around with you? And how goofily I smile whenever you're clumsy? Do you know how hard it was to try and push away the feelings that I had for you? Well let me tell you, IT'S NOT. WHY CAN'T YOU GET THAT SASHA, WHY?!" Louis asked, his nose getting red from the crying.
As if on cue, I broke down in tears and walked away from him without a word. His words kept echoing inside my head. On the other hand, I wondered why didn't I tell him that I loved him? That I didn't want Alyssa to get involved in his life? That he was everything to me? Oh, that's right, it was all because of the flacking amount of ego i had. I WAS SUCH AN IDIOT !
Why was life being such a bitch now?
The next morning, I woke up with a throbbing head. After my eyes had adjusted its sight, I realised that I was completely naked. Well, with my bra on atleast. But still. I stretched and found another person sharing the same bed as me. The body stirred and the unknown person yawned. He removed the blanket and I gasped. It was Louis. As soon as he got up, my eyes pried away from his dingaling, which made my cheeks burn.
"Oh.... God.... What happened?" I mumbled, Unsure of the series of events that had happened the night before. All I could remember was Louis mumbling a couple of words then knocking out, then my drink getting spiked, and then, poof , nothing .
"you really don't remember, eh? well, nothing serious happened, so don't worry about it." He declared, clearly disappointed.
I nodded. Why the hell were we both naked? Had I surrendered my v-status already? Many questions popped into my head like a quickfire round.
I spotted a bathrobe on the floor, so I quickly put it on, grabbed a mirror that was placed on the bedside table and took a glance at myself. There was a red mark on my neck. Oh god what was that? Was it a rash or....? I gaped in horror as I thought about what it was. It was a hickey. My first time getting lovebit and I was in a drunk state. How perfect.
"I'm pretty sure you were quite sober and can remember some things from last night. Ummmm, about what I said, you can choose to forget about it." Louis said suddenly. His hair was in a mess, which made him really cute. "......what if I don't choose to forget it?" was what I found myself saying. He blinked, then got up. He didnt care about the fact that he was naked, he just removed the blanket and hugged me. Suddenly, sparks flew. Butterflies fluttered in my stomach. My heart raced. Am I really falling for him? But.... I promised myself not to fall TOO hard and expect anything from him.
Just as I was about to kiss his cheek, Niall screamed "WHAT THE HELL?!" Immediately, Louis covered himself with the blankets and leaving the room with bright red cheeks.
"Niall... Its not what you think.." I explained calmly, startled at his sudden appearance.
"How could you do this?! I invite you to spend Christmas with me and now I'm finding you having sex with one of my bestfriends! Bloody hell Sasha, what were you thinking?!" Niall shouted, not thinking about my feelings. At all.
"Oh, so you think I'm a slut now?! I'm not that shallow Niall!" I screamed back with tears welling up in my eyes. ".....fine, I'll leave by tomorrow morning and you can pretend none of this ever happened," I said, after calming myself down.
As I turned to take my luggage out from the closet, Niall spoke. "I-I'm so sorry Sash. I guess I'm just not over the fact that Farysha dumped me and I had to vent it out on you instead." His face turned red, for his weakness was getting shouted at.
"WAIT, WHAT?! when?!" I gasped. How long had they been keeping it a secret from me?
"The day after you got sick, she left without a word. The next thing I knew, she was already in Singapore." He stammered, then leaning on my shoulders.
"Ohmigod. I'm so sorry Nialler. I didn't know. I'm sorry that I shouted at you, too." I said, wiping his tears away.
"s'okay. I'm sorry that I screamed in your face, I'm just so concerned about you. I mean, it just makes me so furious seeing the other lads in Mullingar staring at you like you're an easy catch. So furious that I feel like scooping their eyes out when they ogle you. They want to be your first cause you're a naive, good-hearted, gorgeous young girl, which makes it easier for these kind of guys to fool your heart. And you are so much more than an easy catch. You're my sister, and I'm willing to go to the end of the world to protect you from those assholes." Nail said, patting my head. I was so touched by his words. This was why I was proud to be known as Sasha Horan, Niall James Horan's sister.
As I opened my mouth to say something, suddenly Harry shouted "Alyssa's coming back! She's coming home!" that echoed throughout the whole house. I combed my hair and went downstairs with Niall. "who's Alyssa?" I asked. When Harry saw me, he smiled. "enjoyed your night Sasha? ;)" he said. I shot him a clueless look. "haha, don't worry. Your v-card is still there," he assured me in a low voice. I nodded in relief. "Alyssa's my bestfriend since forever. She's amazing." Harry continued. "Soo what are we going to do for her homecoming?" Niall said, as if on cue. "How 'bout I cook up something special? I'd like to meet her," I suggested excitedly. Andrea, Liam, Niall and Zayn looked uneasy. How weird.
Later in the afternoon, Andrea, Harry and I went to the supermarket. We were going to cook spaghetti that night. "she's so pretty, she's so funny, she's so...." Harry kept rattling on Alyssa's good qualities. Harry left to go look for good wine while Andrea and I picked out the groceries.
'so... Does Harry like Alyssa or something?' I asked. I expected it to be a 100% yes, since he wouldn't stop bragging about her ever since he got her text.
'well, yeah. Once. They tried to work things out, but I guess they were better off as friends.' Andrea smiled.
'So.... Does this Alyssa girl have a boyfriend ?' I asked, curious to know more about this amazing girl Harry had been talking about.
'well, no. The last time we've seen her, she's been waiting on Lo-' Her voice trailed off.
'For Louis?' I asked, my heart dropping.
'well yeah. They went out before, but then she cheated on Louis with some rich bloke named Aston. Louis never told Harry about this cause he didn't want to ruin their friendship.' What..? But I mean, that's all history right? I bit my lower lip. I just hoped that Louis didn't have any feelings for her. "don't worry, I bet Louis is all in for you." Andrea comforted, looking at my changed expression. I could only hope.
For some reason, I didn't feel quite alright with the idea of Alyssa still waiting on Louis after all these years.
Then, a whatsapp message came through. It was from Louis.
SwagMastaDoncasta: hey babe. Where'd everybody go? You alright? Come home soon. Miss you. x
I felt like throwing my phone onto the ground, but then again, I remembered the promise I'd made to myself: I'm wasn't going to fall too hard for him. Okay so I kind of fell harder than expected. Tears trickled down my cheeks as I typed with trembling fingers.
Affhsyz: hey. at the supermarket now. ALYSSA'S coming over tonight. See ya.
I purposely typed Alyssa's name in capital letters. I wasn't expecting him to reply to it anyway.
When we reached home, I just made a dash towards the secret stairwell behind the bookcase and cried my eyes out. Then, when I heard footsteps coming, I wiped my tears.
"Sasha. Are you okay?" Zayn said softly and sat beside me.
I took a deep breath and forced a smile. "it's nothing. I'm just an emotional wreck sometimes for no reason. I'm okay." I assured him.
"so you weren't up here hoping that i'd come?" he said, pouting.
I laughed and shook my head. "I'm fine Zayn, don't worry about it." I said with a stifle. "I know you're not. I live with 2 sisters, so I know this whole 'I'm okay' thing means that you're obviously not. Everything's gonna be okay, I promise." Zayn continued, whilst embracing me.
Then, I saw Louis at the bottom of the stairwell, staring up at us. I didn't know why, but at that point of time, my heart sanked. It snaked even deeper when I thought about Alyssa.
"i-it actually h-hurts m-m-me to see one of my b-bestfriends hugging you." He stammered, while trying to look at me in the eyes. In my head, I wanted to scream: AND IT FUCKING HURTS ME TO KNOW THAT YOU ONCE HAD A THING FOR ALYSSA AND NOW ALYSSA STILL LIKES YOU. But I preferred not to start an argument, so I kept it to myself.
"Let's go talk near The Rink." He suggested. The Rink's an ice-skating area, famous for it's magnificent public display of affection shown by couples worldwide during winter.
It was so tensed between me and him. Then, thinking about Alyssa again, my jealousy raged and I hissed, "what do you want from me, exactly?" I realised that it was rude of me to start a topic that way, but I couldn't help my anger at that time, which then resulted in a heated argument.
"what do I want? What do I want? Do you know how much I felt like pushing Zayn away from you so that I could be the only one to hug you? Do you ever realise how much I stammer whenever I'm around with you? And how goofily I smile whenever you're clumsy? Do you know how hard it was to try and push away the feelings that I had for you? Well let me tell you, IT'S NOT. WHY CAN'T YOU GET THAT SASHA, WHY?!" Louis asked, his nose getting red from the crying.
As if on cue, I broke down in tears and walked away from him without a word. His words kept echoing inside my head. On the other hand, I wondered why didn't I tell him that I loved him? That I didn't want Alyssa to get involved in his life? That he was everything to me? Oh, that's right, it was all because of the flacking amount of ego i had. I WAS SUCH AN IDIOT !
Why was life being such a bitch now?
Sunday, 26 February 2012
Chapter 2 - Another World (Part 2)
Chapter 2 - Another World .(part 2)
I breathed heavily as i arrived home. I had to admit, Louis was a fast runner. Louis was on the front porch, gaping at me.
'Aw, do i look that bad?' I asked, looking at Lou's expression. Maybe my hair was messy. Maybe the hem of my dress tore abit. Oh no. 'you're really pale, and you're out of breath.' He said in a worried tone. Then, without warning, the whole world faded to black.
'Don't move,' a deep voice said.
I felt the bright light first, burning through my closed eyes, forcing me to turn my head away from the glare. As i moved, i felt a sharp pain searing through me.
'Sis, i know you're not big on following the rules, but when you're told to stay still, you might want to do as told.' I recognised the voice. It was Nialler's.
I blinked and swallowed. I looked up to see Niall dabbing a damp, small towel on my forehead and four pairs of eyes looking back at me. Liam, Andrea, Harry and Zayn all shared the same worried expression except for Louis, who was sound asleep at the end of the bed.
And then somehow I found the strength to say, "What happened?"
I didn't know what day or what time it was, but judging from their faces, I might've been pretty knocked out for a couple of days.
'He stayed up all night to look after you. He didn't know that you were prone to asthma,' Liam explained calmly.
'Then.... Where's Farysha and Natasha..?' I asked, my eyes scanning the room.
'They had to leave.... Urgent matters.' Zayn said flatly, as if he was hiding something from me.
'Umm.....okay...' I didn't know what to say so I just glanced down and clutched my duvet.
Suddenly, Louis rubbed his eyes and stretched. 'oh hey babe, i'm so glad you finally woke up.' he said. I giggled when he called me babe. Like a giggly, waggly girl. But wait, I bet he's said that to millions of girls before.
He slinged an arm around my shoulder. He seemed comfortable. Then Niall announced 'Liam, Andrea and I are gonna go to the supermarket. Lou, I'm trusting you to take care of her. Don't get too comfy, I've got eyes on you.' OH YES ! Some alone time with him, finally. As if he knew what my mind had said, he winked at me.
'I'm sorry. I promise to make it up to you. It was stupid of me to put you through that situation.' Louis said, while holding my hands. Shit. I hope that my palms won't start to sweat. I pouted, wanting him to comfort me more. And then, he did the most unexpected thing. Ever. He kissed me. Boy was it good. My first kiss turned out better than I had expected. His lips were warm and soft.
When he opened his eyes, he said 'let's go to Down Under.' It was a nightclub. Wait, I'm underaged. By 2 years. How the hell am I supposed to get in?! But not wanting to pass out on the offer, I nodded and went upstairs to change my clothes. Hm. I decided not to look too skanky, nor too goody-two-shoes, so I went with a simple sleeveless pink knit top which made my waist look smaller, but showed cleavage. I had a tough time deciding between blue denim shorts or black skinnys, In the end, i decided to go with the blue denims in the end. I slipped on a pair of red vans and applied some eyeliner. Damn I looked hot, if I may say so myself. When I entered the lamborghini, his eyes widened. Typical.
As we stopped at a traffic-light, I looked over to Louis and found him staring down my top. For the third time. I nudged him playfully.
"Sorry, can't help it. I had no idea how hot you were under those sweatshirts."
I blushed. Once we reached the club, Louis flicked the keys to a valet. The valet winked and said 'New flavour of the week Tom?' DA FUG . what was that I supposed to mean?! Lou just grinned and said 'Ass, she's different.' The valet walked away, chuckling.
As we approached the entrance of the club, the bouncer took a glance at me and said, 'back of the line miss." I gaped, not knowing what to say. 'Its okay Jack, she's with me,' Louis said, resting his arm around my waist. As I walked into the club, many onlookers groaned. Some of them even said, 'But she's not even of legal age!' Oh bitch please, you are SO jealous.
It was a dim and loud place. Frankly I felt kind of lost. Then we saw Harry sitting by the bar with a couple of ladies purposely doing sexy moves to catch his eye. Lou and I approached him. Harry was one of my goodfriends, ever. I knew him ever since the X-Factor. He always had a mind thinking that I'd spread my legs last year. He glanced at me and said "planning to pop your cherry tonight Sasha?" I hit his arm playfully. Then Louis took a seat next to me and put a protective arm around me and scolded Harry for his insensitivity.
I smiled in gratitude until he said, 'And besides, if anyone is going to service Sasha for the first time, it should be me. I have better experience.'
I shrugged off his arm and flipped him off.
"That's right babe, I'm number one. You know you want me."
The boys laughed hysterically at their joke as I did my best to ignore them. Suddenly, a rythmic, fast-paced song played and everyone scattered on the dance floor. Everyone except Louis and
myself. I thought that I'd look silly if I tried too hard to do dirty dancing. Andrea would've prolly become the sexiest dancer there.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
"Sasha, I know we tease you about the whole losing virgitnity thing, but I want you to know that I'm there for you."
I smiled. "I know you've got my back Louis."
He looked stunned then let out a bark of laughter.
"What's so funny?"
"When I say I'm there for you Horan, I mean I'm there for you. I'm single, you're single, it could get pretty hot, don't you think?"
Aha, Louis was definitely drunk. I saw that he had finished 4 glasses of wine. No wonder.
"You make me so happy. Now it's time for me to return the favour. I'd be gentle, and I promise" - he grinned- "it wouldn't suck."
"Are you offering to take my v-status away?" I sputtered.
He gave me one of his lopsided smiles that made girls forgive him almost everything. "Come on, Sasha. You've never thought what it'd be like between us? Really?" well, I have. But not to be taken seriously.
"ummmm...." I said, biting my lip.
"Horan, I've been trying to get you naked since the summer before our first tour," he slurred. Yep, he wasn't aware of what he was saying.
He leaned towards me, placing his hand on my face. I hate to admit it, but I was more than a little intrigued at the turn of events. Half the female population waited with bated breath for Alyssa, his ex, to dump him so they'd have a shot. But he was offering himself. To me. Me?!
Suddenly, he backed away and said "Dont sweat it Sasha. Breathe. Its all good."
I was stunned. "you sure?"
"yeah. But if you ever change your mind, just holler. I'll come running," he said, embracing me tight.
I let him go but couldn't step away as he continued to hug me, even going so far as to run his hands down my back, pulling me closer to his chest, if that were possible. Realisation dawned too late.
"Uh, Louis? Are you copping a feel?"
He smiled devilishly and released me. "hell yeah. If I dont get to play with 'em, I atleast want to feel 'em," and then he fell into my arms. He got knocked out. I asked the bar-tender to get a large glass of punch before leaving. Then I felt dizzy. Harry approached me saying, "oh no. Did you drink too?" I shook my head. "was only punch... Louis... Head...dizzy..." I slurred, beginning to lose consciousness. "problem is, they spike all the drinks here." he explained, getting blurrier by the second.
Then, I'm pretty sure that I had my first Hangover.
I breathed heavily as i arrived home. I had to admit, Louis was a fast runner. Louis was on the front porch, gaping at me.
'Aw, do i look that bad?' I asked, looking at Lou's expression. Maybe my hair was messy. Maybe the hem of my dress tore abit. Oh no. 'you're really pale, and you're out of breath.' He said in a worried tone. Then, without warning, the whole world faded to black.
'Don't move,' a deep voice said.
I felt the bright light first, burning through my closed eyes, forcing me to turn my head away from the glare. As i moved, i felt a sharp pain searing through me.
'Sis, i know you're not big on following the rules, but when you're told to stay still, you might want to do as told.' I recognised the voice. It was Nialler's.
I blinked and swallowed. I looked up to see Niall dabbing a damp, small towel on my forehead and four pairs of eyes looking back at me. Liam, Andrea, Harry and Zayn all shared the same worried expression except for Louis, who was sound asleep at the end of the bed.
And then somehow I found the strength to say, "What happened?"
I didn't know what day or what time it was, but judging from their faces, I might've been pretty knocked out for a couple of days.
'He stayed up all night to look after you. He didn't know that you were prone to asthma,' Liam explained calmly.
'Then.... Where's Farysha and Natasha..?' I asked, my eyes scanning the room.
'They had to leave.... Urgent matters.' Zayn said flatly, as if he was hiding something from me.
'Umm.....okay...' I didn't know what to say so I just glanced down and clutched my duvet.
Suddenly, Louis rubbed his eyes and stretched. 'oh hey babe, i'm so glad you finally woke up.' he said. I giggled when he called me babe. Like a giggly, waggly girl. But wait, I bet he's said that to millions of girls before.
He slinged an arm around my shoulder. He seemed comfortable. Then Niall announced 'Liam, Andrea and I are gonna go to the supermarket. Lou, I'm trusting you to take care of her. Don't get too comfy, I've got eyes on you.' OH YES ! Some alone time with him, finally. As if he knew what my mind had said, he winked at me.
'I'm sorry. I promise to make it up to you. It was stupid of me to put you through that situation.' Louis said, while holding my hands. Shit. I hope that my palms won't start to sweat. I pouted, wanting him to comfort me more. And then, he did the most unexpected thing. Ever. He kissed me. Boy was it good. My first kiss turned out better than I had expected. His lips were warm and soft.
When he opened his eyes, he said 'let's go to Down Under.' It was a nightclub. Wait, I'm underaged. By 2 years. How the hell am I supposed to get in?! But not wanting to pass out on the offer, I nodded and went upstairs to change my clothes. Hm. I decided not to look too skanky, nor too goody-two-shoes, so I went with a simple sleeveless pink knit top which made my waist look smaller, but showed cleavage. I had a tough time deciding between blue denim shorts or black skinnys, In the end, i decided to go with the blue denims in the end. I slipped on a pair of red vans and applied some eyeliner. Damn I looked hot, if I may say so myself. When I entered the lamborghini, his eyes widened. Typical.
As we stopped at a traffic-light, I looked over to Louis and found him staring down my top. For the third time. I nudged him playfully.
"Sorry, can't help it. I had no idea how hot you were under those sweatshirts."
I blushed. Once we reached the club, Louis flicked the keys to a valet. The valet winked and said 'New flavour of the week Tom?' DA FUG . what was that I supposed to mean?! Lou just grinned and said 'Ass, she's different.' The valet walked away, chuckling.
As we approached the entrance of the club, the bouncer took a glance at me and said, 'back of the line miss." I gaped, not knowing what to say. 'Its okay Jack, she's with me,' Louis said, resting his arm around my waist. As I walked into the club, many onlookers groaned. Some of them even said, 'But she's not even of legal age!' Oh bitch please, you are SO jealous.
It was a dim and loud place. Frankly I felt kind of lost. Then we saw Harry sitting by the bar with a couple of ladies purposely doing sexy moves to catch his eye. Lou and I approached him. Harry was one of my goodfriends, ever. I knew him ever since the X-Factor. He always had a mind thinking that I'd spread my legs last year. He glanced at me and said "planning to pop your cherry tonight Sasha?" I hit his arm playfully. Then Louis took a seat next to me and put a protective arm around me and scolded Harry for his insensitivity.
I smiled in gratitude until he said, 'And besides, if anyone is going to service Sasha for the first time, it should be me. I have better experience.'
I shrugged off his arm and flipped him off.
"That's right babe, I'm number one. You know you want me."
The boys laughed hysterically at their joke as I did my best to ignore them. Suddenly, a rythmic, fast-paced song played and everyone scattered on the dance floor. Everyone except Louis and
myself. I thought that I'd look silly if I tried too hard to do dirty dancing. Andrea would've prolly become the sexiest dancer there.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
"Sasha, I know we tease you about the whole losing virgitnity thing, but I want you to know that I'm there for you."
I smiled. "I know you've got my back Louis."
He looked stunned then let out a bark of laughter.
"What's so funny?"
"When I say I'm there for you Horan, I mean I'm there for you. I'm single, you're single, it could get pretty hot, don't you think?"
Aha, Louis was definitely drunk. I saw that he had finished 4 glasses of wine. No wonder.
"You make me so happy. Now it's time for me to return the favour. I'd be gentle, and I promise" - he grinned- "it wouldn't suck."
"Are you offering to take my v-status away?" I sputtered.
He gave me one of his lopsided smiles that made girls forgive him almost everything. "Come on, Sasha. You've never thought what it'd be like between us? Really?" well, I have. But not to be taken seriously.
"ummmm...." I said, biting my lip.
"Horan, I've been trying to get you naked since the summer before our first tour," he slurred. Yep, he wasn't aware of what he was saying.
He leaned towards me, placing his hand on my face. I hate to admit it, but I was more than a little intrigued at the turn of events. Half the female population waited with bated breath for Alyssa, his ex, to dump him so they'd have a shot. But he was offering himself. To me. Me?!
Suddenly, he backed away and said "Dont sweat it Sasha. Breathe. Its all good."
I was stunned. "you sure?"
"yeah. But if you ever change your mind, just holler. I'll come running," he said, embracing me tight.
I let him go but couldn't step away as he continued to hug me, even going so far as to run his hands down my back, pulling me closer to his chest, if that were possible. Realisation dawned too late.
"Uh, Louis? Are you copping a feel?"
He smiled devilishly and released me. "hell yeah. If I dont get to play with 'em, I atleast want to feel 'em," and then he fell into my arms. He got knocked out. I asked the bar-tender to get a large glass of punch before leaving. Then I felt dizzy. Harry approached me saying, "oh no. Did you drink too?" I shook my head. "was only punch... Louis... Head...dizzy..." I slurred, beginning to lose consciousness. "problem is, they spike all the drinks here." he explained, getting blurrier by the second.
Then, I'm pretty sure that I had my first Hangover.
Saturday, 4 February 2012
Chapter 2 - another world
I woke up at 2pm the next day. Wow, the jet lag must've really kicked in. After refreshing myself, i wore a simple tee paired with shorts. Then, Andrea, Farysha and Natasha were practically gaping at me. "Why aren't you ready yet?" Andrea said. I shrugged. They all looked so fancy and all.
Natasha's outfit: http://www.polyvore.com/off_with_it_already/set?id=43095062
Farysha's outift: http://www.polyvore.com/cute_is_what_we_aim/set?id=38187414
Andrea's outfit: don't need to ask. She's a fashion designer-in-training, so obviously she'd pull off any piece of clothing she chooses.
And after a couple of hours going through my closet, they finally found a clothing, a dress in specific, for me to wear. Frankly, i hate dresses, but i don't mind trying out things once in a while. When the four of us came down the stairs, the boys were like "OH MY GOD" and i heard Harry whisper, "dude, she looks like your prom date." While the other lads chaperoned their girls respectively, Harry just smiled there while Louis whispered "good to go?" "yeah," i replied, trying to sound as normal as possible, cause i swear my heartbeat was loud enough for him to hear.
It was a 10-minute walk to the nearest Nando's, and since the boys didn't want to attract too much chaos with the 1D mobile, so we decided the inbetweeners way. While walking, he asked
"Soo...Sasha...do you have a certain reuirement in boys or something?" while putting his hands in his pocket.
"um, not really. as long as he has a sense of humour and cares for me, i guess he's okay. What type of girls do you like?" I asked, not wanting to end the conversation.
He smiled at the ground and muttered, "someone like you." I froze and found myself blushing. "w-what was that?" i asked, just to reconfirm his answer.
Before he could reply, we saw Niall giving Farysha a piggyback and shouting, "race ya to Nando's! Yeah buddie!" and sped off. Louis crouched down, signalling me to hop on, and we were off, head-to-head with Narysha. (a mash up name i created) . In the end, Zayn/Natasha won, followed by Louis and I , Narysha, Liam and Andrea and last but not least, Harry. It was an amazing night, we ate a whole feast, using Niall's black card, which was only offered to celebs who were regular customers of Nando's.
After dinner, we all headed back to my step-dad's home. When we were about to head-off, Snowflakes started falling onto the ground. Shoot, so much for looking pretty. Natasha was shivering. And zayn, being a really sweet and concerned guy, he whispered to her, "you alright babe?" concerned.
"yeah, it's just that i am-"
"no you're not. take his, i don't want you to be frozen by the time we get home," Zayn teased, and took off his varsity jacket and gave it to Natasha.
"noo, you'll fall sick you bradford boi!" Natasha said, while taking off his jacket.
"fine, then we'll share. Happy?" Zayn suggested.
Natasha nodded and the both of them walked away, happily.
The rest had already walked away, it was only me, Louis, and this dim one-way street. I tried to stop my teeth from chattering and i folded my arms.
Louis said, "umm... want my jumper?"
"No, thankyou." I replied. My mum always said to think about others before yourself.
"Well, we could always move on it you wear this sweater or we can stay here all night, freezing to death by morning." He said, smugly.
I thought for a while then said, "fine." He took off his jumper, revealing his six-pack abs. Once I put on the dark-blue and dark-green striped jumper, he exclaimed, 'Race ya home!' and stuck out his tongue.
'This guy, is W I E R D .' I thought to myself, and ran after that swagmasta from doncasta.
"Soo...Sasha...do you have a certain reuirement in boys or something?" while putting his hands in his pocket.
"um, not really. as long as he has a sense of humour and cares for me, i guess he's okay. What type of girls do you like?" I asked, not wanting to end the conversation.
He smiled at the ground and muttered, "someone like you." I froze and found myself blushing. "w-what was that?" i asked, just to reconfirm his answer.
Before he could reply, we saw Niall giving Farysha a piggyback and shouting, "race ya to Nando's! Yeah buddie!" and sped off. Louis crouched down, signalling me to hop on, and we were off, head-to-head with Narysha. (a mash up name i created) . In the end, Zayn/Natasha won, followed by Louis and I , Narysha, Liam and Andrea and last but not least, Harry. It was an amazing night, we ate a whole feast, using Niall's black card, which was only offered to celebs who were regular customers of Nando's.
After dinner, we all headed back to my step-dad's home. When we were about to head-off, Snowflakes started falling onto the ground. Shoot, so much for looking pretty. Natasha was shivering. And zayn, being a really sweet and concerned guy, he whispered to her, "you alright babe?" concerned.
"yeah, it's just that i am-"
"no you're not. take his, i don't want you to be frozen by the time we get home," Zayn teased, and took off his varsity jacket and gave it to Natasha.
"noo, you'll fall sick you bradford boi!" Natasha said, while taking off his jacket.
"fine, then we'll share. Happy?" Zayn suggested.
Natasha nodded and the both of them walked away, happily.
The rest had already walked away, it was only me, Louis, and this dim one-way street. I tried to stop my teeth from chattering and i folded my arms.
Louis said, "umm... want my jumper?"
"No, thankyou." I replied. My mum always said to think about others before yourself.
"Well, we could always move on it you wear this sweater or we can stay here all night, freezing to death by morning." He said, smugly.
I thought for a while then said, "fine." He took off his jumper, revealing his six-pack abs. Once I put on the dark-blue and dark-green striped jumper, he exclaimed, 'Race ya home!' and stuck out his tongue.
'This guy, is W I E R D .' I thought to myself, and ran after that swagmasta from doncasta.
Sunday, 29 January 2012
Chapter 1 - Stole My Heart
As i boarded my plane to Mullingar, Ireland with my bestfriend Farysha, my goodfriends started to cry. I was leaving for Ireland to visit my step-brother Niall Horan. Yes, Niall Horan from One Direction. As i wiped away the tears from my eyes and turned towards the boarding gate, i accidentally bumped into a tall, brown-haired, green-eyed boy. "Sorry!" he exclaimed. He had the most amazing british accent ever. But hey, i couln't tell him that. Wait... isn't he Louis Tomlinson? From One Direction? Oh gosh, no wonder he looks familiar. I nodded quickly and walked away."What's wrong with you? It's Louis Tomlinson! You promised to spazz if you were ever to see him right?!" Farysha nudged. I shrugged. Frankly i didn't know why; probably cause i was freaking out too much on the inside.
After about a day and half being in that plane (apart from all the transits in Brunei and Dubai) , the flight was really amazing. I met and saw really different people. When Farysha and I exited the depature gate, we saw Niall, Liam, Zayn, Andrea, and Harry waving at us (apart from the bodyguards and screaming Directioners, ofcourse) . Then, I felt a tap on my shoulder. "Well, hel-lo beautiful." It was Louis. I just gave a blank face as i thought that he was fooling around, being his usual self. Well, atleast that was what i thought. I guessed he had sensed my ignorance towards him, so he said "well you're one tough cookie to get," and winked. Wait, what? "No i'm not!" i protested. He laughed and held out his hand "Hi, i'm Louis. Louis Tomlinson." I couldn't help but smile and say "Hey, im Sasha. Sasha Horan" i held out my hand, and he kissed it. Luckily whenever i'm blushing, my cheeks dont turn red. God bless me for that.
When i turned around, i saw Niall and Farysha already making out . Did i mention that they were a couple? No? Oh, well they are. For 1 year and 5 months. I know, right? "You're blushing sis" Niall said. "I'm not, its just really hot here." i said defensively. My brother can be so obvious sometimes. "Wasn't red just now" Harry said, winking at me. "Guys be nice to her. Or niall will bite of all of your fingers." Liam said, chuckling. Andrea leaned in to give me a hug. She and Liam had been dating , but she was really close to Harry too. Kind of a love-triangle eh?
After a bit of chatting in a nearby Starbucks, we headed to my step-dad's home . It was huge ! When i stepped in, I saw my step-dad, looking jolly and all . He gave me a hug. "You've grown so much! How are you?" he said cheerfully. And if it wasn't for my sharp sense of hearing, i swear i heard Louis mutter "woah there mr. Horan, you've got the whole world in your arms right there." Then my elder step-brother ushered us to the dining hall. Just as we were about to dig in, someone bursted through the door. It was Natasha! "OMG OMG OMG AM I LATE?!" . We all exchanged glances and a split second later, we all roared with laughter.
It was amazing . The weather and all . After i chatted with my mum on the phone for a few minutes, Harry, Zayn, Niall, Liam and Louis appeared in my room . "Louis has something to tell you." Harry said smugly, while putting an arm around Louis. I arched my eyebrows. "ummm, go ahead." i replied, anxiously. "w-wou-would y-you" he stuttered . Liam , obviously annoyed said "oh come on! Would you like to go out with us all tomorrow? We've made reservations at Nando's for dinner. Is that okay? Good. See you at 8 !" Louis looked flustered and mumbled "see you at 8." and scurried away. Niall patted me on the back and went off to look for Farysha.
I didn't manage to give a response, but i guess its worth a shot. What could possibly happen? I shrugged, and found myself going to sleep smiling widely.
It was amazing . The weather and all . After i chatted with my mum on the phone for a few minutes, Harry, Zayn, Niall, Liam and Louis appeared in my room . "Louis has something to tell you." Harry said smugly, while putting an arm around Louis. I arched my eyebrows. "ummm, go ahead." i replied, anxiously. "w-wou-would y-you" he stuttered . Liam , obviously annoyed said "oh come on! Would you like to go out with us all tomorrow? We've made reservations at Nando's for dinner. Is that okay? Good. See you at 8 !" Louis looked flustered and mumbled "see you at 8." and scurried away. Niall patted me on the back and went off to look for Farysha.
I didn't manage to give a response, but i guess its worth a shot. What could possibly happen? I shrugged, and found myself going to sleep smiling widely.
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